It's 2:29 am

I knew taking an almost four hour nap today would not make for good sleep tonight and now here I am. This house is so peaceful at this hour. I try and imagine what it would be like with a one month old. I imagine that instead of sitting on the couch with Ellie's blanket I would be snuggled up with her. Maybe she would be awake and eating or maybe just passed out after a late night nursing session. One thing is for sure I bet she would be warm and smell like a perfect little newborn. I miss that newborn smell. Sam lost his tiny baby smell a long time ago. Sometimes when we snuggle I get little tiny whiffs of it on his head or on the back of his neck when I nuzzle my nose in close to him. I am so thankful that Sam is a little love bug. Whenever I hold him close I ask God to keep him as much like a baby as possible. I need it for just a little bit longer.